Tuesday was a mess,but everything´s still the same anyways

(And yes,thats maybe what i wanted the most...)
I cant believe how fast my mind changed yesterday. It was like i was(still im ..i think)able to leave everything behind and look ahead.That was so nasty from me,i know..but
It was the way i used to protect myself from people around me. Ive always said 'i dont know what i feel inside,i still dont know!' ,so..why did i have to go and accept things that i dont feel?huh? Weird.
Today i was calmmer,but still doubts.You know. This is not something im used to living and things like that. Im new in these kind of things,obviously and i cant manage it.
My head tells me something ,but my heart tells me another thing. So confused..but..sure of myself in another hand. I dont wanna hurt no one,i dont wanna hurt feelings..i dont wanna suffer.i dont wanna you suffer because of me..no..i dont wanna any of those kind of things.

Things have changed..its like anything would be like it was yesterdar u.u