I just wanna think postively for the very first time in my life.I wanna believe everything..or at least,something in my life is right and you really belong with me.

Sometimes im afraid and my dark sights invade my mind,i get scared and i 'forget'every beautiful thing i felt for you.

Now im trying to make up my mind and i must confess that i really like it :)

dont know if it´s a mirage,but i always see you face

You make me feel okay :)
Im feeling so okay when you´re around :)

Thinking back in  those messages...cant believe whats going on and whats gonna happen then

PLEASE dont be in love with someone else.
PLEASE dont have somebody waiting on you

Maybe i should have stayed quiet this time..you dont deserve it and it hurts me so bad :(
but...at least,you already nkow by now that i have never wanted to leave you alone and things like that..you´ll see. im not that kind of girl and i would never do that to you!
Sometimes,it hurts knowing that you might think it about me ..but,in the other hand i understand the reason why :/

Its never too late when it comes to love :'(

Just when i think about those three magical words you wanna hear and i´m dying to say..i get frozen:|
Cant believe you become in the most important guy in my life.Cant believe im dyying to be with you.')

I just wanna hold you close and feel your heart so close to mine~

But you´re a million miles away

Never told ya..

but i was dying to hold you close :$

  

Maybe, i´m just scared because for once , someone actually wants to be with...me

Fell in love when i saw you standing there

Now i know that my behaviour was just like i thought it was..i only say that you all are right:)

Shut up & love me..
cuz you already got me (8)

about to go to sleep and remembering the great things :)
(you´re set in my mind)

Sometimes, i login in here and i feel  a little awkard :|

I hate it when flashbacks come along and invade my mind. Its so hard to clear up my head when it happens :(

I know dreamming of you its not enough..

I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Things like these make me think that you really could be the one :)

Feeling like i wanna cry myself to sleep :'(

That awkard moment when i find myself lost in a sea of tears and my self-esteem lied on the floor:(
Can believe anything which is happening , am i feeling this way seriously?-Well,i think im.
I havent experienced thw sadness before in a long time ago.I dont really like it,not really.

Why..

Why do i wake up in the morning thinking about the last dream i had which includes or its mainly set in ..you?
Why do i wake up so flawless without doubts and silly problems in my mind and then time goes by and i make everything go..difficult?
Why i deny what i feel inside when i talk with my friends and act like i dont even care when i really do and i cannot stop thinking about it?
Why do i put a big smile in my face and look like 'hey,im so happy' when actually ,my life is such a mess and dont konow what to do ?
I just wonder why im not brave enough to face some of the biggest and most ordinary things in my life?
Why i prefer to run away when all i ever want is ...stay?

"You fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time"

Well..honestly,i thought once we may end together..dont know why :|

I thought it was so easy to understand ,but it wasnt.
I thought there was nothing to say,but there was a lot.
I thought i didnt care about it,but i really did

It's hard to determine whether you really have feelings for someone or you are just carried away by the good things they do

  

I said it once before,but i think i should repeat it out loud:
-I dont wanna hurt nobody,i rather hurt myself than doing it to another person.

You just dont know it ,but you got me in your toes..

Thinking about that i may hear you say those three words set in my mind right now,i get... nervious.
I dont know if i really want to hear it,but its not up to me.

Katarsis

i really know whats going on here,i know what i see and i catch every signal.
I dont feel bad with myself because im alone ,huh? im good.
I also know that im old enough to have a boyfriend and share some time with a guy.
Im able to date.Thats sure.
I admit i have never had a boyfriend (im not hysterical about that neither) and maybe,yes..id like to have someone around me and tells me beautiful things,kiss or hugs me. Id love it...
BUT...
I dont think this is the right time for it, im almost 18,yes,but my mind is set in other kind of stuffs...not only in men!!!
I love you,but..not the way you love me,maybe. Im probably taking my time to think and concentrate about my future..i dont wanna hurt anyone :(

I dont wanna fall in love ,but i guess its a bit late..xoxo

im not gonna lie,i really like it when you´re close to me..but,i dont know what to do those times

a little chat

-can you be honest this time,please?
-oh sure,just ask.
-ok,do you like him?
-i just cant answer it. next
-alright,do you have fun when you´re near him?
-oh yes,i always spend a great time..
-and ..do you often talk about him with your friends?
-hmm..not very often.
-why?
-because i just want to clear up my mind and my own ideas,thats all.
-oh no,do you still have doubts bout his feelings?
-.....no,i trust in every single word i hear and see..
-so?
-i ..i just have doubts about me..
-oh oh..you´re still being insecure..
-im always insecure of myself.Although i feel like this kind of 'feeling'is growing up in my heart,i just dont feel able to show it and free me.
-why?
-i dont know,i cant see myself sharing and spending a lot of time with someone else who belong to my class,its awkard. I dont like when people worry a lot and take a sight on my life..its like'why are they talking about me?why are they trying to stick my mind to something im not very sure? or..why are they telling beautiful things to me that i dont want to hear?
-You must start to believe in yourself,you can be so much more than you think.Believe me,maybe this can be the time of your life and you´re not enjoying it :) Just move on and follow your instints,yoúr heart is not lying.
-Yes,sometimes i think it too..but..
-but?
-i dont feel good with myself when i do it,so..i prefer to think the opposite.