Today

Okay,i admit that i was 'a bit' in jelousy last week.But in despite of it..it doesnt mean im feeling that way today..so?
I also say that i was happy to see you again and things like that.It made me to feel so good:)
But..i dont know whats wrong with me,i dont feel beautiful,i think im getting fatter and fatter..i just dont feel i fit in..anymore :( it made me to feel so sad,because i consider myself such an ugly girl and..it hurts inside:(
I wanna believe in me,but..i cant:(