Why..

Why do i wake up in the morning thinking about the last dream i had which includes or its mainly set in ..you?
Why do i wake up so flawless without doubts and silly problems in my mind and then time goes by and i make everything go..difficult?
Why i deny what i feel inside when i talk with my friends and act like i dont even care when i really do and i cannot stop thinking about it?
Why do i put a big smile in my face and look like 'hey,im so happy' when actually ,my life is such a mess and dont konow what to do ?
I just wonder why im not brave enough to face some of the biggest and most ordinary things in my life?
Why i prefer to run away when all i ever want is ...stay?